my new time favourite![:

i was 20 mins late for the school council briefing with shahidin waiting for me in the canteen. haha. we went to the LT room, miss josephine ong was giving a small talk about school council and what they do and all. looking at all the slides that were flashed in front of me, i was hesitating if i was in the right place. i was not a school councilor before until now. it was a good opportunity i can say but am i able to fulfil the requirements they need if not they can just say goodbye to me.

commitment? what is commitment? Commitment means to duty or pledge to something or someone. i have my studies, exams, projects and many more. now, I'm in school council. balancing so many things in one go, i had no places for others. i can say i really working damn hard in this course and in the school. from the first day to now. i might slacked a little but i cant deny i really put my heart and soul in it with the help of GOD and family. it would not be so successful without their support. i prayed and i left the rest to GOD to decide if i should be in this position. in a position which i have given all the opportunities in school.

it's been 2 months in TG! [: i made new friends, close friends. i was happy and excited especially on the first day. [: the first person i talked was sookhar. HAHA. how did we start talking? she wanted to borrow a pen from me to do the quiz. HAHA. [: jonathan, kunyao,shirin, caspar and darryl. i might not be very close to them or talk a lot with but I'm happy to be their friend. haha. yupps. [:

i do not really have good impression about ITE from the very start. i kept saying i would not be going ITE until the day when we all got back our results. i was so devastated when i saw i failed my english. the subject which i put in so hard. my family did not blame me but they encourage me especially daddy. to ___, i was happy that you were here with me too. [:

daddy said, what's the point of crying over spilt milk. it will be an obstacle for me to overcome. a fall to pick up myself once again. he has encouraged me a lot and talking sense into my head. he called polys and asked the courses i can go with my results. mainly were engineering. i gave up on polys and open up to ITE courses. i was so reluctant to even enter to an ITE. the negative thoughts i had.

after i came back from my trip from taiwan, i had to go for interview for the course i am in now. daddy had set the base for me and now left with me, myself and i. i was walking so slowly from the car park to the admin office. 'do i really want this?', 'i do not want to disappoint my dad again.', 'it just one year, bear with it.' and more thoughts. i prayed for guidance and left with God to decide.

after the interview, i was so relieved and excited for the day to come. it's like finally a heavy stone of mine was gone. it's like I'm wanted from them. but this did not change the fact of people's impression of ITE. i was so ashamed to be in ITE. whenever people asked, 'so where are you studying now?' when i told them ite they just kept quiet and i have a feeling they looked down on me. an IJ girl to an ITE student. what a disgrace and all. people keep saying it's okay and all but they did not understand how i felt as they are not in my shoes.

my mindset changed when i went to HOGC when hweeyee asked me where am i studying at now. i took a deep breathe and laughed and i told her. she shoot me with this, 'what so embarrassed studying in ite?' i was so shocked as she's the only person who said that after so many people asked. i started to open up the fact that I'm in ite and i should be proud of it. there might be negative comment about ITE but do they really know or what. I'm in ITE i know it myself what kind of school is it.

people in HOGC really damn friendly i can say. some were interested in the course I'm in and this guy i forgot his name. his name sounded really like mine. he was so excited about ITE. i was surprised and all. i don't know how to phrase it but ya. its like whenever he saw me he will tell me about ite and all. he seems so happy about it. HAHA.

after all, i think i currently love my life mann. HAHA. with the power of God. [: hope i still have time for family and friends with some much work on my hands. I'm gonna really make use of my holiday break. [: YAY! my life seems to be changing. I'm loving it. [:

i supposed to blog about today but just feel like penning down that. [: it's a long long post. back to the point after the briefing. i went home and changed. i met up with jon and kunyao for the job interview. after that, we met up with sookhar to have lunch at SUBWAY! haha. after that, i went home. [:

toddles.

Patience is the key!