things are getting bad to worst for me nowadays. it seem that this will never end. its like torture. rachel is still in the hospital, she can be discharged on sat but then she puked and all,so had to stay another day,today she can be discharge also but she puked again.wtf.when will this end,she have to stay in hospital like almost a week or something.

brenda also not feeling well.maybe the same virus attacked her too. have to look after her and rachel.two sick patients.one in hospital another one at home!daddy has been going to and fro to the hospital and home.mummy has to stay in the hospital with rachel and rachel will never want mummy to leave her.24 hours stick to her.i stayed in the hospital with mummy on friday night. we chit chat and stuff like what mummys and daughters do.i can tell that she really very tired and heart pain.those feelings are unbearable.she did not have good rest and sleep.

that night,rachel had to have another injection on her right hand instead,as the left hand the needle runs and the nurse said usually the kid will cry when the needle runs but rachel did not. she is damn strong. proud of her,but her hand was swollen. so after that i brought her down to the 7-eleven to get some fruit juice 4 am in the morning.yeahh. but then mummy came down and look for us,saying that she need to go for another injection on her hand. we waited outside, mummy decided to go back to the bedside and wait.so i just waited outside. standing outside could hear her crying in pain,its like a knife stabbed you or something.i cried too,praying she was alright and be brave. she came out crying in the nurse's arm.went to carry her and hug her and brought her back.when the moment she saw mummy she cried even louder.its really hurting. mummy almost burst out too.

we went to goat farm today.it was pretty fun feeding the goats. will post the pictures up when i had loaded to the computer.drank the goats' milk.chocolate and original.i prefer chocolate to the original.haha.original taste like the goat itself.haha. after that. went home and went to hospital again.stayed until five plus and headed home than to the church for evening mass. jie and i were late for half an hour.yeah.went to bought dinner and headed home to watch singapore idol. it so funny,laughing our ass off.

friend friend friend.i know that you are super duper disappointed in your results so am i. maybe you think im lying but it true,although i'm like enjoying and stuff. maybe you think that our friendship had drifted apart but please spare a thought for us too. everytime we approach you what kind of attitude did you give us and stuff.scolding us and stuff.we can understand but please there's a limit somewhere. hopefully you still remembered what you said, we must still be in touch 10 years down the road and for that i promised.but..we dont seem to be as close as before,you have been out with your outside friends.most of the time.we know sometime we do make you angry by not company where you wanna go but sometime you should ask before hand and not last minute.usually you would ask us out last minute and kinda stuff. i know you dont like the friends i mixed with outside,but they are my primary school friends.you dislike them you dont have to show attitude to me thou. maybe everyone is moodless for anything. but please if you could understand the situation im in now.i need you. you are my super duper close friend besides chersy and the rest. but now i dont know what is this.i will make sure this friendship will last forever no matter what it takes. even the good ways or the bad ways. im serious about all this. hopefully you can like give us space in your heart again,princess. maybe i did something wrong or said something that make you kinda angry or something. im sorry. hopefully everything will turn out to be alright.i really appreciate this wonderful friendship.

everthing had changed,i might neglecting people around me,but not my family.i need them and they need me. so if i neglected anyone,please understand. thanks.